Today was a really hard day. Lots and lots of tears for everyone. I feel like I'm becoming so good at suppressing grief and pushing the sadness way down deep so that I can somewhat function in life. With two young kids (not to mention all the other adult life responsibilities) I don't have the luxury of just wallowing in my grief or just staying in bed and crying all day (which is totally what I have wanted to do these last few months). Nope. These kids need a Mom so I've been forced to push through and find pockets of privacy/alone time to grieve and let the sadness out. I'm saying all that to say when I saw my Dad's family today for the first time since the funeral all those hard, sad emotions resurfaced and it was pretty much impossible to hold it together. I think we all felt the same way hence all the tears. Despite my heavy heart I am beyond thankful for the family I have here and also all the loved ones I will be reunited with in Heaven someday. Especially my sweet Daddy :-)
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